We Can Get Lost and Not Know Where to Go or Know What's Next
Updated: Mar 29
Sometimes we can get lost and not know where we're going or know what's next. Life can throw us for some loops, sometimes minor and sometimes major, and as a result we can feel lost. Sometimes we’re not for sure what’s going on, what's happening, and the only thing you can do is put one foot in front of the other, which can sometimes even be a challenge.
We can go back to those baby steps, and understand how important they are, because sometimes that's one thing you can do.
I had been working on myself for quite a few years, but from the time I started working fully on myself (I had all the pieces) and the time I figured it out (I seen the picture the pieces made), it was about 15 years. It was then I realized I had been working on my Body, Mind and Spirit, to improve my Health, Wellness and Fitness.
But even after doing it for 15 years, I still didn't quite know the full importance of it until a few years later when I dealt with cancer. It was only from looking back at the experience could I see how easy I handled it.
The short version:
Had a biopsy with complications, and instead of recovery I woke up in ICU the next day with a bunch of tubes coming out me. When I found out I was in ICU, my reaction was, “OK.”
The following week, cancer diagnosis and complications again.
Went back the following week for an eight hour surgery.
A few weeks later at the first follow up, when the splints were taken out of my nose, a nerve was hit, I passed out and had a couple seizures.
I took that all that with ease, “Okay, sure, no big deal,” that’s the way I acted, but I didn’t realize it until I looked back.
Now prior to the biopsy, I had a block sinus for about 2 1/2 years, and I finally got it checked out. The blockage was being called a tumor, and I was being referred out of the area. I was triggered by being referred out of the area and about how I was I going to pay for it. There were insurance issues, finance weren’t that great, so I was triggered and had suicidal thoughts. This wasn't the first time, but this was the first time I actually researched the techniques I was considering.
I had the peace of mind to know I wasn’t going to do something that week. What I was considering doing was going to take a little planning and if I followed through, I was going to several hours away, possibly even another country.
I knew it doesn't happen that week and was in a little bit of fog, a daze. The one thing I did do, was to keep doing those baby steps of working on my Body, Mind and Spirit.
I was able to get up and do a morning meditation.
My only activity on social media was sharing positive quotes.
I kept watching videos to get myself to learn.
I kept exercising.
I did my afternoon meditation.
I kept all those baby steps, it was the only thing I knew to do; keep doing the mind work, keep doing the physical activity, keep eating (mostly) healthy. I kept myself as much as I could in a positive mood and kept the positive input coming in to me.
I didn't want to talk to anybody I didn't want to reach out for help. I did talk to a buddy of mine who had his own long history of medical issues and I asked him how he kept his thoughts from going down that dark path. This started on a Monday and didn’t talk to my busy until Thursday or Friday.
I kept doing these baby steps every day. After two or three days I was still looking at techniques and doing a little research. Keeping on top of those steps is what got me through it.
When you start to think negative thoughts, you can often just let yourself sit there and kind of wallow in it, you’re not doing anything. This is when you need to do at least some activity, you need to get up and do something. I dealt with the dark thoughts by being active, taking those baby steps as best I could at the time.
I was able to take at least one foot in front of the other, even if it was a shuffle step. Was it easy” No. I had the advantage of knowing I was going to follow through that week, I knew I needed some prep time, so at least I had enough consciousness to say, “OK. Let me keep working these baby steps. What is it I can do to at least keep myself going?” That's what did I just.
I kept doing the little bit of meditation I could.
I kept looking at the positive things.
I kept halfway eating healthy.
I kept exercising.
By Friday or Saturday, the suicidal thoughts were basically gone.
The little things done each day, have a compound effect. If you get yourself in a situation where things aren't going all that great, you don't know what's going on, don’t know where you're heading to next, don’t know what's taking place. If you start going down that negative spiral, take a moment to pause, and figure out, “What are the things you can at least keep yourself doing?”
Can you at least do some type of exercise? Even if it's walking.
Can you at least take some quiet time, to get connected with some positive thoughts whether you think about your family, partner, your children, or grandchildren?
Can you at least make get some type of healthy habits in there?
Can you learn? What's a new skill you can learn?
Keeping those baby step going
I still trip up and get some of those negative thoughts in there, but thankfully I haven’t had those suicidal thoughts in a few years now. I'm not perfect, I still make mistakes. But I choose to keep learning, and understand if nothing else, I can keep taking those baby steps, which is the reason I'm sharing this with you. Here's something you do if you get lost and not sure where you going, or what's next?
You at least, can do something to work on yourself as a whole, your Body, Mind and Spirit?
This was about my experience, this is not medical advice, prognosis, or diagnosis. If you or someone you know are having suicidal thoughts, reach out for help, talk to someone.
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255